I've felt pretty crappy today. It's a little surprising considering how well I slept. They tore down a wall downstairs and I was none the wiser until I got up. I originally awoke at 4PM, just to take my medicine, but I ended up staying up after I sat down and started checking email, Facebook, and Twitter. Once I was up, I went ahead and browsed the rest of my usual websites (sports, entertainment, tech stuff, etc.) and chatted a bit. I'd finished my routine and was messing around on IM when it happened. I had just started to reply to my friend when I started drifting uncontrollably to my right. I somehow finished my response--my fingers going on autopilot--and I'm really not sure how I didn't completely fall over. I dozed off for a split second.
This has happened before. I fall down now and then, my legs (along with the rest of my body) going limp like I got hit on the chin, but usually recovering shortly after hitting the floor. I've caught myself a lot, too, grabbing onto chairs, tables, counter tops, and walls before I completely lost my way. Luckily, I've never hurt myself nor have I ever completely gone unconscious, but I've closed my eyes for a second or two and had no control over my body several times.
I think it may have to do with the new headache medicine on this occasion. It makes me feel weird. I'm supposed to take it twice a day, but I'd only been taking it once because of the stomach issues. I think I solved those problems by drinking more water with it, so, last night, I went ahead and took the second dose. Perhaps that's why I slept so soundly (and dreamed such weird dreams, too...that my brother and I were little, and somehow were on Mars where they'd terraformed a colony and all kinds of other weirdness). The falling over incident happened almost 12 hours after taking the medicine, though, and 9 of those hours I was in bed. I'm thinking I might be better off just dealing with the headaches with some Tylenol.
Today was weird. There wasn't really any warning that it was coming on. I'm usually more lightheaded than dizzy, though I feel elements of both and am fairly used to them, but when I start feeling worse, I tend to get dizzier. Today felt more like anesthesia was kicking in, but I wasn't counting backwards from 100. It was rather scary. After I collected myself, I went back to bed for a couple of hours. I mainly got up just so I wouldn't sleep until midnight and completely mess up my sleep schedule, especially since I have plans for Saturday...
On a better note, I found someone to catch the UFC with Saturday night. Hopefully I don't pass out...my original intent with that was to be funny, but now that I think about it a little, it's a legitimate concern...argh... As long as I'm conscious, it'll be a good time. I'm looking forward to the fights, plus getting out of the house with a friend is always good. We'll be at Buffalo Wings and Rings downtown, next to Steak 'n Shake on Maryland St., if you want to hang out. I guess we'll be there if you don't want to hang out, too, but then that info means less ;).
It's so frustrating having so little say in what I can and can't do. I'm very tired of having so many limitations. It's been about half my life, now, that I've had to accommodate my eyes, and the last 7 years of being constantly woozy. It's hard enough navigating through life being poor and broke and shy and self-conscious about being poor and broke and shy. I'm not so shy now, and less self-conscious, but I'm still held back. At least before, it was more on me and I just had to change my thinking and dive in. Now I'm often too sick to make it to the pool, and even when I'm able to get there, I still have to worry about it kicking in and drowning. *SIGH*
Here's hoping for a better tomorrow for us all :)!
-B
P.S.
Don't forget the Fever on Sunday night, 8PM tipoff, at Conseco Fieldhouse! Let's pack the joint and cheer the ladies onto victory and a tie in the series! http://www.wnba.com/fever
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